JOCELYN OWNS YOU BIG TIME BABY!!!!

RETONKILL! my savior!

2010-04-24T13:08:00.003+08:00

I was baking cupcakes the other day with Tracia. Here's e ingredients in case u might wanna try make it yourself :)

flour

sugar

5 eggs

milk

Simple as 123.. the steps are easy too. Dont be lazy go google it! My eggtarts were a bit burnt but it was nice overall just a little too sweet. But ive already cut down 50ml of sugar. :(

Was going on chatroulette with my friends these few days and nothing much just 50 men jacking off -.- ya.. it was so boring cos i had to keep clicking next ..next...next.. came across this old men about 70 yrs old.

ME: Hi grandpa

OLD MAN(waves)

ME: Are you a pedophile?

Fuck seriously, you really meet weird people in chatroulette. Some decent ones i would say. was wondering what's so fun about chatroulette, and i realised there's nothing fun unless u like meeting random strangers and seeing black, white, jewish, irish etc men jacking off on the net. It's better called "free porn going wild". nuff said bout this.

This is the imp shit! Yst afternoon, Ili and Beck came over my place. While i was skyping with J, Ili found termites on my floor! I thought she was messing with me, i went to take a closer look and saw 4 tiny white worms on the floor. I looked up and saw my cupboard infested! They have built a FUCKING COLONY in my cupboard!!!!!!!!!!! horror TTM! GROSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS meter x100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000

they dispossed their food (wood) into tree branches like shape! I had goosebumps all over me for a whole 2 hours! I cried cos it was fucking sick and i called my mom.

"No point crying now honey, I'll call Retonkill, ure a big girl now."

-.-

I was horrified. I didnt want to stay in tht termite infested room any longer. So we went out for chicken rice. Retonkill came and i swear the minute the guy came out of his van, i saw a halo on his head. He was like a hero to my rescue! With him around, i wasn't scared! But the bad news is i have to leave their nest there for a week for them to bring bck the poison and kill all of them. therefore, im crashing over Jon's place for the next week or so. The hero is coming bck on Friday .. I pray everything will be cleared by then.

FML!

It's been a long time my love :)

2010-04-22T22:54:00.006+08:00

It's been a long time my loves! i swear i totally forget i still had a blog! I'm starting

work on Monday. My mom met an accident today.. 7 cars accident, she was the first

car :) She came back really happy telling me her whole story and laughing all the way

because she is certain she does not need to pay anything, which means the 7th car

needs to pay til siao! Tht fucker better pray he tio toto tmr..

I love my bberry! but i want it to be chio! It's so original now.. black.. i want it pink!

baby pink! argh! it's ok la, i'll wait for the shipment -.-Had Katong Laksa just now

with Beck! yummy :) then baked egg tarts.. really ! not bad for first try. LOL!

Time pass really fast! next yr's May I'll be going to OCU lo. It's 11 months ltr and i'm

already excited =D I cannot wait to get out of this shit hole!

Mommy and daddy :(

2009-10-22T19:34:00.003+08:00

There will not be any pics yet cos i havent uploaded any. Not to mention i have no mood and all the pics have no link to what im gonna post now. I have always wondered if i became a better person, no nonsense whatsoever, will my parents be loving once again? I have always thought the reason why my parents' relationship turned sour is beacause they are always arguing over me. But i guess tht is not the reason. OK, maybe i was partly the reason but not the main one.

Whatever my papa told me today spoiled my day and made me feel sad and sympathise with my him. It all started when i sat down to have dinner with him just now. He told me he was going to undergo a brain operation to adjust his nervous system cos his left ear could not fuction anymore which causes him to have sleepless night sometimes cos of the irritating "buzzing" sound. And i asked him what did the doctor say? Did they think it's a good idea to undergo this operation.Most importantly, will there be any danger? He told me "50-50".

WHAT'S THT SUPPOSE TO MEAN ?!! 50-50? i was worried. But papa made the decision and i respected it. So, i told him to let me know when is it and ill be there.

papa: dear, your mom wont care. Even if your mom and i bumped into one another in a shoppong mall, she wont acknowledge me.

And he told me so much for that one hour. The thing is my mom looks down on papa and everyone can see it even my friends! This is how obvious my mom shows it. My dad is a photographer and mommy is holding a sales director post and obviously my dad doesnt earn as much as my mom does.

Im angry! Im sad! Im so many negative feeling all mixed together. Why mommy? so what if papa doesnt earn as much as you? He is still providing for this family. Why did you have to say those harsh words to him and hurt him? My father is not young anymore in fact he is already 62.. and he told me "papa is just gonna sit and wait to die"

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ALL OF YOU?!?!?! I dont like it when you say this you know papa!!!!! I hate it! i hate it so much i wish i was not born to witness and feel tormented by all these!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will provide for the both of you in future I swear i will! The both of you only have me, im your only child! I will not throw the both of you one side so pls dont say those things anymore!!!!! I love the both of you so much !

Pasir Gudang

2009-09-16T10:38:00.005+08:00

This post is a little outdated cos the event was on last Sunday! muahahaha... We went to PG ( Pasir Gudang) for track day. Jon got 2nd! hahaha YOU LUCKY BASTARD! Met Yan inside to eat Bak Kut Teh then met Kenneth and co at PG =) They practiced for 2 hours cos the 5 laps race was at 4pm.

Anyhow, when we were there it was still the bike race and i saw Azri ( HKL racer), we chatted for awhile. He was asking me why wasnt i working in HKL anymore. hahahaha .. Well, i know there's a summary to every story but this is really a long long long one. So another day.

Jon was actually leading at the last 2nd lap but the water temp rose and he slowed down and end up 2nd. But i told he did a great job and i was proud of him. Well you gotta be happy with what you have right?
(Below are the video and pics of the race)

Ok.. anyhow, i finally watched TWILIGHT! thank yoooooooo YVONNE =) and thanks to you, i got addicted after watching it. I actually went to youtube to watch all the videos they had on TWILIGHT and almost went to POPULAR to get all 4 series of the storybooks. LOL but the addiction only lasted for like 20 mins? The movie BRUNO was boring. FUCK YO JJ! LOL He was the one who told me "The movie fucking dope la!" then i went around to look for the dvd and finally i got to watch it and it was such a disappointment! Plain boring...

These few weeks i have been really sick and busy so my blog hasnt been updated. But at least i took the time to update now! LOL .. This coming SAT is JJ's birthday and I cannot wait because because!!!!!!!! I'll get to meet POOVY, ANGEL and co and weirdly DEREK CHAN! hahahahahaha ok one thing common about JJ and I is we have loads of friends in common (excluding Jon's friends) and i mean A LOT!!! So, taking JJ's birthday as a chance of catching up with my friends too! LOL !

These past few weeks ive seen the changes in me =) good changes. Well ive become the old jocelyn once again. It was difficult gaining bck the confidence and ego. But one thing ive learnt and realised " Humans are probably the worst kind of breed around!". And i will live my life for me and no one else. Im happier this way and i will not give TEN FLYING FUCK what others might think. I will love the people who deserves to be loved and hell to those dickheads..this is how i think everyone should be cos there is no such thing as " HAO XIN YOU HAO BAO". (Good deeds will be repaid). FUCKING NO SUCH THING so stop having this mindset you will be just lying to yourself.

Let's go Upside down!

2009-08-31T12:27:00.002+08:00

Phooyoo!!!! It's been DRAMA ... DRAMA and more DRAMAS .. these past few weeks! I am back with Jonathan and he has been really sweet but im worried things might change after some time again. Im not gonna blog about anything regarding these dramas cos IM UBER UBER TIRED!

I nnnnneeeeeddd a long long break! From everyone! People have been calling me to go here and there. Crying to me... Asking me for help. In the meantime, I HAVE MY OWN PROBLEMS LA DEY! It's not that i dont wanna lend my listening ear or anything, It's just that there will be this time in your life when you just wanna shaft yourself away from everyone! And this is the time for me.

I wanna go to Hawaii, lie on the beach looking at the coconut trees swaying while think of all the dramas going on in my life. I havent been so tired for a long long time. I remember the last time i felt like this was back in secondary school. When i decided to change for the better. LOL and so i told my mom that i wanted to be alone and i went to Tokyo and stayed in Tokyo Disneyland's Hotel for a week! LOL. I came back with a whole new me! But now, as i get older, the problems im facing are so much more complicated than before and not easy to deal with. There are more responsibles i have to deal with and i cannot just shaft myself away from the world. So i have to learn to face them and fucking deal with it! Not easy i tell you... Im losing all my ego and confidence all of a sudden. I need to gain them back quick cos i feel fucking pathetic now. I ve never been like that. "OI! give me an ego booster plox!" :)

Running away is definitely a very very good idea. It's like choosing the easy path. But come to think about it. It's easy for me to just run away like that, but as time goes by, the one suffering will be no one else but ME. So i've come to a decision to walk the tough path and know that at least ive tried. I have done my part as a girlfriend, friend and daughter. My previous post was full of agony, looking back, im wondering when have i become so pathetic? It's good to look back sometimes, cos tht is when u know u have made a mistake, reflect on it and WAKE UP!

Here's something about me. I ll hate someone so much but after some time ill just forgive that person cos life goes on right? Here's a toast and shoutout to everyone i ve used to hate! LOL

"I NO LONGER HATE YOU!!! LET'S BE FRIENDS AGAIN =) come talk to me!"

Day 1 without Jonathan

2009-08-19T11:04:00.003+08:00

No matter what u guys might think im still gonna write. It will be so so emo which is not what u people normally see in my blog but this is just the right place to ease the pain so pardon me :)
I woke up in the morning feeling horrible, misearble and lost. I took my phone wanting to msg Jonathan to tell him i wake up alr and i realise we're not together anymore. Im missing him so badly, i went to the toilet after dazing into the sky for 5 mins. I lose control and cried, i couldnt take the agony and msged him "Baby im missing you so badly".

He didnt reply...

I went back to bed thinking of getting some sleep but my mind started to wonder around again. I took out my lappy and unknowingly went to the "Jon and I" picture folder. stupidly looking at our photos made me even more miserable so i called him. But things did not turn out right as expected. I cried so hard after he hung up. I kept telling myself what i normally tell my friends after a break up but apparently and obviously it's not working. Not having Jonathan in my life is a life not worth living for. But ah.... i wont do anything that will hurt myself. Fucking contradicting cos now I ve already bruised myself so badly by letting him go.

I miss the way he hugs me, the way he kisses me, the moments we will be in his room watching movie together, the way he kisses me goodye before going to work. The way he ll make me laugh so hard with his stupid actions. hahaha and wierdly, the way he likes to irritate me with his fart. 3 years and 5 months is not exactly long but there are loads of memories that will haunt me for the rest of my life. This is a great fall that is going to shake my life. I love this man so much. I need something to make me sleep i have bad bad insonmia now!!! I cant fall asleep. My mind keeps wondering around and i cant move on. Tell me to get a life! This is so pathetic i wanna talk to him!! I Wanna call him "dada"! I wanna hold him so tightly! I wanna spenf my weekends with him!!! BUT I CANT!!! i cant i cant i cant!!! I feel so useless! i cant do anything to get my love back. All i can do not is lie here typing this post when he's not even gonna read it!!!

It's only 11:30 am time is passing too slowly, every minute feels like 3 years. I wanna go Aussie to start a new life. Ill go have a talk with my mom later at night.

I dont like emo post

2009-08-13T21:59:00.003+08:00

So much i hate posting emo stuffs.... recently, i just cannot help but type all these emo shit! I love happy posts, cos they are evidence of me being happy.

When i was in the plane on my way to Sydney the other day, I told myself i was gonna enjoy that whole week not caring anything that might happen in this SHIT HOLE (Singapore), and i did! I couldnt care less what was happening back here, whether or not Jonathan was betraying me once again. I was happy. It has been ages since i felt so carefree.

Once in the plane on my way back, 10 mins away to land.. I was hoping i was still in Sydney, I so did not wanna get off the plane. I have no idea why. I Dont wanna stay here anymore!! Coming back here is like putting myself back to the end of a cliff where i could fall off anytime again and the last fall was a hard one. I fell so hard, it was so painful i wished i could DIE! I DO NOT WANNA GO THROUGH THAT AGONY over again! It was too much that i could bear.

Why do they have to be so selfish? YES! I mean ALL the opposite sex of me! They are such dickheads. Im sorry to all the "hao hao xian shengs" (Good Good guys) LOL!!!! There are a few incidents that happened in my life this week. But in BLOGS you tend to only write 40% of what you reallly wanna say cos some are just too private. So i'll leave those out as usual.

The things that happened shattered the rest of the 10% trust i had for Jon to the ground. Seeing and witnessing those incidents really gave me more reasons to not wanna get married in future fearing same things might happen and by that time, it'll be too late.

My friend found out that her boyfriend cheated on her too!! And it happens to be Jonathan's friend?! Oh well! tell me should i laugh? or feel sad for her? I dont know what is in the heads of these fucking retards! Im full of hatred right now i could burn down their houses. It's a mistake for their mothers to have given birth to them seriously. They are so fucking selfish! TRY PUTTING YOURSELF IN OUR SHOES DICKHEADS! then ull know what the pain is like! but tht's not likely to happen.

Dear god,
Pls enlighten me! Tell me why is that they can be so selfish and betray us over and over again?

AMEN!

I have made so many mistakes before! But the biggest mistake was to fall in love with you JONATHAN! Giving you all my trust, love and time! How is it you're able to push me one side and not think about me at all? TELL ME!!!!!! Am i not good enough for you? ACTUALLY! i shouldnt ask myself this question cos i know for sure "YOU ARE THE ONE WHO IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME! I KNOW I DESERVE BETTER!" But why is it so difficult to let you go! Could you do me a favour and like go "PHOO!" and disappear? I wish!
OG GOD!!!! so difficult! argh! FUCKING SHIT URE PUTTING ME THROUGH! Let it go soon please i beg!

:(

AUSSIE WAS SUCHA BLAST!

2009-08-12T16:08:00.007+08:00

Ok people for the benefit of my dear friends especially JOLENE and despite the fact that im so so so lazy i still pull myself up to upload and update about my Aussie trip :) I have some videos thou but ill upload that in a later bit.

I was shocked that the SIA lounge has upgraded the lounge's computers. They have 12 fucking sets of MAC desktops!!! tsktsk so why are thy still retrenching their staffs?

This air stewardess reminds me of this Hong Kongactress.... ok nvm

This was my appetizer before my lunch! 8 long hours..... :)

oooooo This is Darling Harbour. I stayed at Star City where the Casino is located at so it's like walking distance to darling harbour! I met clau here on the first day.

Met Raphael and gang at Chinatown after.

and the view from my hotel room...

Ok this is interesting cos it was my virgin. Claudia brought me to life drawing where naked men and women will be posing for everyone to draw. U should see my masterpiece (too bad i lost it).... lol it was phoooyo!

Here! coolest place "NARITA" lol.... i love this place. You can order different kinds of board games for only AUS$2 each and slack there. I wanna go back now! OH! below is the stupid game we played for children age 3-7 i think. We wanted to get th adults one but it was too difficult. LOL You are suppose to guess what you are without seeing your card.

Fishmarket! anyone needs boosting for higher sex drive? OYSTERS for you!!! LOL. Fresh oyseters.... big or small they have it all baby!!!!ssssllllluuurrrpppp!

FUCKING stupid bird! disgusting

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I was fascinated with the menu cos it was like a newspaper

yayaya.....opera house... everytime i go to Sydney, my mom has to go there. BORING!

This is superb! they have it in Singapore too!!!!!!

LOL! meet Matt! claudia's bf

Finally! the CASINO part! i happily went and won 100 dollars on the first day but lost 80 on the 2nd and 3rd day! fucking loser sia me... LOL

I LOVE MY ORGASMIC FACE! I THINK I LOOK FUCKING CHIO HERE !!!! LOL

BAILEYS<3

Jazz pub

Mayu's Birthday at The Loathe at darling harbour

The day i was going back :(

Bye bye sydney!

My singapore sling on the plane lol...

I actually have like loads more but seriously it's too much to upload!!! I have something to blog about besides my trip.

I was wondring just now if i would get to know any guy who is faithful, sincere, sensitive and honest or do am i gonna be stuck with JONATHAN FOR THE REST OF LIFE?!?!?!?!!?! I have been thinking a lot but i still cannot get an answer to all my doubts! Jonathan is not doing anything to gain back my trust. People are telling me different things everyday! I wanna get out from his life but ARGH! GOD!!! IT"S SO SO SO FUCKING DIFFICULT! I wanna go back to my single life but on the other hand i want someone to spoil me like a kid...

i wanna go smoke ill update soon! maybe tonight? lol

THAI DISCO!!!!!!

2009-07-21T22:08:00.003+08:00

I ll try not to swear in this post so much because i ll try to have some dignity for once. Breaking up with jonathan is something i did not expect that will happen so fast.

Dear Jonathan,

You're the one who threw this 3 yrs relationship away not me. The one who is going to sit one side crying is you not me. HOW COULD YOU! cheat on me for a thai whore! I had to dig the truth from her. Dont you think you owe me an explanation. I called her and she told me " Dont blame anyone, you're the one who should look after your bf" (in her thai accent) FUCK I CANT STAND IT IM FUCKING GONNA SWEAR NOW! ga dulan is her fucking english i was trying my best to understand... she sounded like a maid jon!!!!

Firstly, I despise guys who go to thai pubs. Then, this thai girls do not even have a work permit they can only be in spore for 2 mths and they have to go back. AND AND!!! all they want is to fucking earn money from FUCKTARDS like you! I have been to thai pubs, ya thai girls are hot but fuck what if they are bapok sia! wht you gonna play your dick with her dick? When you have a normal singaporean GIRLfriend who has been through so much with you AND do not need a work permit, you stupidly shaft her away cos of a fucking thai who doesnt even know how to speak english! YOUR"RE FUCKING PATHETIC LA! why sia Jonathan.

My eyes are done swelling for you! I am done having sleepless nights. I AM DONE WITH YOU!
You fucking hell took advantage of my love and still had the cheek to be angry when i went to clark quay the other day cos it was siwei's bdae.

You had any idea how much i loved you? and u re heartless enough to stab me over and over again, how much can my heart bleed sia? Dont tell me "baby, i still love you, im sorry can we start afresh ive deleted her number." wht's the fucking use? If this doesnt wake you up i dont know what will anymore. NNBCB i cant understand why are you so fan jian!!!!!!!!!!! Im so fucking angry with you!! Too much money to waste? do charity la! wash your sins away! AND you ll rather spend it on tht fucking PUA CHEEBYE! wait i dont even know she has one not.

Let me tell you my plans for this week and pissed you off
Mon, I went to drink at boat quay
Tues, go sebai (thai pub) to drink
Wed, go ZOUK
Thurs, fashion bar
Fri, O BAR baby!
Sat, chalet
Sun, chalet

OH AND NEXT WEEK!
AUSSIE baby here i come!!!!!!!! Ill party my life away!!!!!! Ill go back to the days without you! parties woooohooooo!!!!!! It actually feels good to break free from you and go back to my old life. This is what i ve wanted to do long ago but cos of u i didnt. Im suspecting the size of your brain is probably the size of a walnut. I hate to admit i still love you so so much but i believe time heals all wounds even the deepest one. :) Ill wait for that day when my wound is healed i hope it's really soon

PS. Tell Liyan ill never trust him anymore and he can stop calling me too

U fucktard

2009-07-14T12:54:00.002+08:00

Just another typical Sat outing last week, so there isnt much things to say. woohooo. So anyway, i have finished my GP finally! remember my last post i was still deciding on whether to do on Britney or Paris? Turned out i have to do 2 celebrities after all cos my topic is celebrity comparison. So in the end i did on Britney and Madonna!
Btw Reg, you're so gonna regret stepping on my tail! I will start by doing a post on you.

I wont say what's gonna happen cos i cant see myself going all back all of those drama again. So this is what i have to say and you better listen you fucking whore!

You look so ugly even the surface fo the moon looks better than you! dont go cry to your parents and ask them why did they give birth to a monster cos i BET your dad has been regretting shooting his sperm into your mom the day u were born! So fuck you.. go find all the fucktards you can find on street and get fucked til your pussy explodes cos for all i know an exploded pussy looks better than you too! Oh and! dont bother going around my friends and try to spoil my angelic image cos obviously it's not working at all. In fact your friends are the one who told me that you fuckface, is fucking around and is a FUCKING WHORE you bitch! so please be smart and open your huge eyes and see who ure messing with before you open your mouth and start sprouting nonsense. This is not all ! because ive been putting up with u and this is when i explode and good luck to you!!!

Ps. thank you Jasmin for your rubber bands! Loves <333

2009-07-08T00:47:00.008+08:00

Havent been posting because because... because! :)
Last sat we went to this place located behind Yishun Dam.. It was a big long quiet junction. Windy, coolinf breeze.. i love it! hah.

They had all the cars lined up this way, i have no idea why cos the cars at the back cannot be seen. This proves that guys really use their dicks to think instead of their brains ......

I have cleared all my modules!! one last one to go GP(graduation project).. and i regretted choosing Public Relations. My topic will be how to change a celebrity's image, and im planning to do on Britney Spears lol.. I thought like she had many reasons behind all the creepy and outrageous things she did... i guess this is the PRICE OF FAME. After i watched the E true hollywood story on her, i pitied her. I guess anyone will be in the same state as her if they had gone through what she had. EXCEPT! the shaving her hair bald is definitely not what i will resort to! OMG! can u imagine me bald?

"If you take Britney's life and put a moment in time where things started
getting bad, it's the moment she got involved with Kevin Federline," Pinsky
opines.

Do you all think it'll be a good topic to do if im choosing on a celeb who i can help to build up her image. Cos im contemplating on whether to do on Britney or Paris Hilton. Argh!

BTW, I have this job opportunity where u can easily earn 3k-5k per month, but u really have to put in the effort and work really hard.. no pain no gain. It's sales, part time and commission and home based! So, if anyone is interested let me know. <33

So anyway.....
RIP MJ
:(

Big girls dont cry

2009-06-20T00:13:00.002+08:00

You know i hate it when u do not keep your promises. And this is why i ve decided not to keep mine. I guess your hobby is to rip my heart apart all the time and make me cry so hard.

argh.. forget about him already! yeah easier said then done. I hate you as much as i love you which makes it even more difficult to leave you. Being with you is so damn tiring and painful. It's worse than menstrual cramps.

Crying doesnt solve anything so i ve became smarter all of a sudden and decided to blog about my agony! Damn! i seriously need to have stronger will power and not give in so much. But if i have, ill stop smoking already.

Sometimes it's the little little things you do that gives me the idea that u do not cherish this relationship as much as i do. I ve made mistakes but i change, in your case, you change to the worse day by day. This relationship is sucking up all my energy and to tell you the truth, im running out of ideas and patience to salvage this relationship. I can be there when you need me all the time but can you? Whenever you break your promises, it's like slapping me right in my face, so just imagine how many slaps have i gotten. (literally)... My face should be red and swollen by now. I hope you regret this for the rest of your life.. cos im telling you now!

ME! jocelyn ong will be the best girlfriend you ll ever have! treat me right you asshole!

If u have followed me on twitter.. yeah i ve just realised my dream yesterday while watching E entertainment. I wanna be lady boss open my very own baby's clothing line. Oh! there will be pampers too cos pampers are such hot sellers. Which baby doesnt need pam pam right? Im so excited. lol Kitty is going to sponser me $20 000. lol.. so wait for me 5 years down the road ill be a successful business woman.

sorry baby, i wont have time for you anymore by tht time.
hee!
Big girls dont cry!

Go crazy Go baby

2009-06-17T00:07:00.004+08:00

LOL! go crazy go baby!!!!

Dear diary, i still love you

2009-06-16T23:25:00.006+08:00

MY BLOG HAS A NEW BRAND LOOK!!! lol... oh my it took me like 3 hours to get it done. But i cant seem to expand the width of my entry column which is damn screwed up. WTH i dont care anymore..

Went to Pasir Gudang on Mon which was yesterday for SK garage track day. U have to READ this. I woke up at 6am cos we were suppose to meet at 6:45 am at plaza. But as usual, everyone was late so we only got to set off at 7 plus i think.. nearly 8! the journey to PG was roughly an hour. Happily with excitement rushing down everyone's spine, we made our way to the custom. The traffic was smooth. (The initial plan was to go for the 9:30am track slot)

THEN!

TRAFFIC JAM LA!!! DUH!
so pissing off it jammed for like 1 hour plus! goodness, my backside almost got burnt cos i was sitting for too long. When we reached the end of the traffic jam, I found out that the reason behind this fucking long jam was ONE fucking truck which i think the driver stupidly crash into a tree. BECAUSE OF THESE RECKLESS DRIVER, my poor backside was numb and we missed the 9:30am slot and had to wait til the 12:30 one.
This was not the end......

We reached there, like FINALLY! We got off the car relieved and told the security guard we were going to the track and tht guard said.....

"erm..... sowwie 2 ang mohs ah book da whole track ah. NEH 2 porches lo book the whole place to test. so sowwie ah. next time then u all come lo. "

................................................................................................

2 porches?!?!?! boookkked the whole track??????????? 2 ang mohs?????? tht explains everything. totally ruined everyone's mood. LANLAN went to eat chicken rice.

In case u are wondering why i named this entry "dear diary i still love you". The reason is cos i have not been updating so i was reminding my blog tht i still love her i ve been busy tht's all.

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAH til the next time fuckballs!

MY MOOD IS SO SO BAD!

2009-05-29T22:43:00.002+08:00

FUCK YOU, YOU , YOU, YOU AND YOU!!! FUCK THE WORLD WORLD

My mood is so bad now i hope you get H1N1 and die. Or better still easier for you....
go fuck a pig and die!

Argh! im so pissed! i dont know why!!!! (pardon me, i need to vent it out..... WAIT! IT'S MY BLOG! WHY SHOULD I CARE)

Fuck face fuck fuck fuck! My sleeping disorder is getting worse, i was so stressed yesterday night i woke up crying cos i couldnt sleep and it was 3 am AND i had exam 5hrs after. My headache was excruciating, the pain was so unbearable i gulped down 2 painkillers but they did not seem to help AT ALL! oh ya FUCK YOU PANADOL!

I tried to call Jon but he was sleeping like a pig! so FUCK YOU JONATHAN! Today i was cranky for the whole day cos DUH! i only got like 2 fucking hrs of sleep and had to write 4 fucking essays during the exam.

I thought everything would be fine cos ill be sleeping in his arms having him making me feel like a lil princess and coaxing me to sleep! But no!!!!!!!!!! last min changes! and i hate last min changes! He had to repair his car. so there you go FUCK YOU ONCE AGAIN JONATHAN AND YOUR EG6!

haiy..... fuck me chao!!!!

My babygirls

2009-05-23T00:20:00.003+08:00

To have my babygirls in my life is the best thing EVER that has happened to me. (not the one in blue. She's a fucking WHORE. used to be one of my chicas but uh-uh no more).

Meet Danielle Anastasia Lugue Menon, Nicole Jac Koh, Claudia Sutiono, Ili Shahirah and Bhavna!

I have known them for almost 10 years. Seriously, i wouldnt know what would i have become without them pulling me back to the right path over and over again. I have done things that disappointed them but they never give up on me.

So many things have happened these years. Despite all these changes, our bond is still as strong!

This is a post to let my babygirls know how much i love all of you! :)

Kiss Kiss

2009-05-19T14:23:00.002+08:00

I dont even know why i name this post "kiss kiss" i dont know what else i can write. haha. So anyway, meet Aaron, Ah zhang, Ah be and Ah mei. Boyfriend's cousins and siblings. Oh my! i really feel like da sao .

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA

They wanna slack so i brought them to slack.

I was having fun taking pics of myself when i got home. Initially, i was going to shit then i didnt in the end i sat on my toilet bowl, smoking and taking pics of myself. It makes me wonder what am i gonna end up doing in the future. Those pics make me look like a fucking hippie. Long blonde hair, smoking like there's no tmr. Fuck sia... I dont even know what am i doing with my life.

Some people my age are already working towards their goal. But im sitting here smoking my life away. Well, at least im still focus in my course Mass Comm.LOL.

Ok. yesterday this girl added me on MSN! so i thought it was one o my long lost friend and i accepted. A few minutes later she nudged me.

girl: Who are you?

me: what the fuck?! u added me and youre asking me who am i?

girl: I mean who are u to AMIL?

me: who the fuck is Amil?

girl: my boyfriend. why are u in his msn?

(I went to check who this Amill guy is)

me: Im his Poly friend

girl: Can I delete u from his friend list?

me: YA :) u can cos i dont give a FLYING FUCK.

girl: can u speak properly cos im speaking to u nicely.

me: fuck u! fuck off... Look girlfriend, start having some trust in ur bf and have more self confidence. If ure gonna continue getting paranoid and deleting all his girl-friends in his msn without asking him, ure so gonna lose him sooner or later. ARE U DUMB or ARE YOU DUMB? and i dont even speak to him. OHMY LORD! help this WOMAN!

LOL.... YEAH hahaha... goodness gracious me! she's dumb. I bet like she looks worse than a pig so she's like "how? i think i look so ugly my bf's gonna leave me for another girl. i better check in msn and delete all the PRETTY girls" everyday.. so she's probably having Insomia. She must be feeling Intimidated by me so she came to talk to me. LOL fucking loser.

Im gonna watch E-entertainment now. So long friends chao

SAT NIGHT RACE postponed

2009-05-19T14:16:00.006+08:00

In the end we did not race that day...

JJ's friend could not make it so they postponed the race to next week i think.. Damn lame. lol.

Race baby RACE! ROAR!

2009-05-15T21:54:00.003+08:00

JJ's friend driving Type R wants to have a friendly match with boyfriend this sat. So it's type R and Eg6. Were not racing for money.. this is friendly. But seems like everyone is not very happy about it. Initially, i wasnt very supportive but i like the excitement.

Whenever boyfriend illegal race at Orchard, I will give him an attitude but shhhhh... honestly, i TOTALLY adore the attention. I mean if i were to say i dont like my boyfriend doing this kinda illegal stuff. ILL BE FUCKING LYING! but hey tht doesnt mean ill support him doing all the illegal stuff.

Illegal Racing is something diff. The feeling and excitment is just SENSATIONAL! I love it. It all started when he was still riding Honda SP (class2b bike). TEAM HURRICANE XUANFENG 32. damn lame, damn childish but i like.. hahaha. sorry i abit psycho sometimes. I LOVE BAD BOYS!

Then ya, he won some races. Then now TEAM NIGHT ERA.

The feeling when im in the car while he races down orchard gudang is not something i can just type it out. U have to try to know how i feel. I used to say i cant stand those girls who's boyfriends drive a tiong chia (modified cars). BECAUSE they have this super guailan and sialan face that i feel like stepping over and over again. They always have this "CB i damn cool sia! my bf drives a tiong chia. nehne nehne poopoo" look! .... EEEEEEE annoying. BUT, NOW! hahahahahahahahahahahaha...... i know u toatlly cannot blame them cos i love to action too when im in his car. especially when he's leading.... i feel like a yaya papaya. LOL like im on top of the world.

Fuck sia i think this post is full of nonsense i havent even gone to my point. Well, my point is................. I LOVE BAD BOYS? LOL

so i met up with Angel today for a smoke outside school. I was mapling in class sia and doing silly things like making nitin's leg hair look like a ball? hahahahaha

k bye

OH! happyy day.. oh happy day!

2009-05-13T14:00:00.003+08:00

Tom ( nicole's bf) came visit her from the States so i brought him to eat Laksa last week cos Nicole wasnt free and he was bored! When his laksa came he asked me:
" Jocelyn, do i have to put the chilli?"
(as you know the chilli is not CHILLI SAUCE it's the SAMBAL kind) so i told him.
" You can if u want, but put a moderate amount cos it's really spicy."
But he refuse to believe me he said
"Ah! dont worry, i can take spicy" and he put 2 full spoon of sambal into his Laksa.
IN THE END! his lips were burning red and he was sweatng like a pig and said
" it's really spicy! the chilli is so diff back in the States!"
Wasnt that what i was trying to tell you the whole time ?

If you all are wondering who the TRICIA girl is.. im too lazy to explain. Just some 13 yr old girl who likes to tio taiji (finding trouble) then hides herself in her friend's house to cry when she ppl wanna tio taiji with her. :)

WHAT'S HAPPENING TO TEENS NOWADAYS?! lol

KL TRIP as promised~

2009-05-12T09:35:00.008+08:00

So ive came back from Msia. Initially i booked the rooms online at hotel malaya located at Patalin street cos Yan told me the parking there is safe. After a fucking long and tired journey, we reached the hotel and the so called "safe" carpark was DEMOLISHED!!!!!!!!!!!! and! the hotel looked like shit i tell you!!! so we decided to stay at the hotel "ANCASA HOTEL RESORT AND SPA". It's not far from hotel melaya but the diff is huge! This one looks like Ritz Carlton. LOL!

We went flea shopping then drive our way to Genting the next day. It was my first time to Genting! haahaha! i was so excited i looked like a mountain tortise. Jonathan went to the Casino with Lester and Yan and lost S$100. hahahahah! in fact they all lost about the same amt. haiy.. "THE CASINO IS NOT GONNA LET YOU WIN ALL THE TIME YO!" so if u win some money it's time to smack smack your ass and leave the place dont stay and fall into the tiger's trap.

Li jun, Ah hao, Amy and I were smarter, we went to have a cup of caramel frap at coffee beans then head back to the theme park. Wohooo! ANYHOW! i forgot to mention, we all had to squeeze in one hotel room.... pocket abit tight ah friend :)

When we were on our way back home, we stopped by this resort to swim and play the water rides i forgot what it is, and then went to eat seafood....................... oh god! im so lazy to continue. I shall not continue on the trip cos tht's abt it.

I got a D for Electronics Media!! :) im happy cos at least i passed! I seriously thought there wasnt any hope on this. But I think Mr Lim was being very very lenient and took pity on me so he passed me. or.... maybe.... im just too smart? ya the second reason seems more convincing. I love living in self-denial.. it makes me feel so happy. I am what i want myself to be. :)

The end of the world 2012

2009-04-22T23:36:00.015+08:00

Went to watch Taken today with my babygirls at the Cathay. 4 out of 5 stars!!

Anyway, Ili was telling me about the news recently saying that a fucking comet which is 10 times the size of Earth is going to hit Earth in 2012.

ok i pondered for awhile..........

The thing is this fucking rock is going to pass by earth in a circular manner and because the heat is too overwhelming, it's gonna destroy the two layers protecting Earth and Earth will have no more energy. AND without energy, humans cannot survive so we're all gonna fucking DIE!!!!!

The big question right now with alternative thinkers of all sorts is whether there will be a 2013 at all. According to some doomsayers, the end of the Mayan calendar on 21 December 2012 is supposed to herald events of such a cataclysmic nature that one wonders if it will be worth doing any Christmas shopping just a few years from now.

It is fucking scary. I better get married and give birth to my baby Romeo (in case ure wondering i wanna name my son Romeo) and and so many other things i wanna do before i die :(!!!!!!

Have you all ever wondered who would u wanna die with? I would wanna be with everybody i know. My parents , Jonathan and everybody!!! I dont care whether they are PLK or fucking pathetic nerds i know. I just wanna be with everybody i know so we can die together. LOL but the thing is without energy, there wont be reception, so i wont be able to make any calls to anybody telling them "Ey cheebye! meet me at Orchard Cine at 7pm so we can die together." ok now you know where to find me if u wanna die with me :)

Serious la! Doesnt this scare the hell out of you! The scientists better be cracking their brains because they are the only ones who can save us now i think! Besides G-O-D. Im getting damn paranoid now . Im having goosebumps while typing this entry.

I just spoke to Jon over the phone about this and all he can is " Bullshit la! tht time they say 2000 now 2012. lame la" Eeee chao ah beng! So I was trying to convince him it's really gonna happen but whatever, he doesnt wanna believe me.

Honestly, I dont really believe either.. I googled about it just and there are so many different theories. hahahahaha!!! Whatever it is, I just have to make sure I have done everything i wanna do by the day i die.. so contradicting. What if i die tmr? or now while typing this........

Ok i wont continue or this will never end.

"Lots of things happen today. Which doesn't make me happy at all. Firstly was about Darling and her steady, Fight?. Secondly, SOMEONE called SOMEONE to come down to kfc look at darling. Think they so big? With TATTOO on their back? Sigh, Don't understand this KIND of people, no life! -"

by:http://www.lil-fairytale.blogspot.com/ 14 years old malay girl. LOL go read fucking funny, She's referring to me. BTW those spamming on her tagboard are not by me only those with "jo" la but tht's not spamming tht's tagging POLITELY :) Im demure! :) I love children and i love Singapore :) ASK ME ASK ME WHT HAPPENED!!!! FUCK!! ASK ME!!! I CANT STAND IT ILL TELL U :)

ok two days ago i went to plaza at BP to meet jon's youngest bro, sis, cousin and jas cos his mom didnt cook for lunch so i had to meet them after their school to have lunch. Then, we went to KFC and there were these 3 pathetic teenagers sitting in front of me and Ah be ( jon's bro) told me one of the girl name CLARABELLE found fault with him last time. Therefore, i wanted to see who exactly was she. :) So i looked at her, but as usual i have this sialan look la.. so this young girl thought ah be called me down to find fat with her. Then she called her bf to complain, so Ah be called Clarabelle and passes the phone to me. I told her "if ah be does anything u call me ill discipline him myself, U dont have the right to "discipline" him."

Then this young girl thought i was scolding her. haiyo... So i saw this blog by tht malay girl with her and yup that was what she wrote :) How cute.... anyway i have something to say..

"FUCK YOUR MOTHER'S PUA CHEEBYE!! U FUCKING YOUNG GIRLS WAIT TIL YOUR PUBIC HAIR GROW ALREADY THEN TALK TO ME. NNBCB! BEFORE U TYPE ANYTHING IN YOUR BLOG MAKE SURE THERE'S NO WAY I CAN LINK MYSELF TO YOU! MY NAME IS JOCELYN ONG, DONT MAKE PEOPLE GO DOWN TO TIONG BAHRU. U WANT YOU FUCKING GET YOUR ASSES DOWN TO WHEREVER I AM TO TALK. DONT YOU DARE ASK MY BROTHER TO GO DOWN TO WHEREVER YOU ARE!"

Ure hot then Ure cold

2009-04-22T00:39:00.002+08:00

Time is passsiiiing too fast seriously! Just a blink of my eyes and my laobu is back from Hunan! Anyway!! I went prawning again, this time round only caught 5! fucking noob! muahahaha! $30 fffeeeeewwww!!! GONE! just like that.

Quarelled with Jon. EEEEEeeee... He's so insensitive. I told him i wanted to stay over his place but he didnt want cos of petrol. ok fine! I said ill go back myself tmr but he still dont want... haiya!!!!!! make me feel so fan jian! Then i told him " If u think im so mafan then why did u ask me to stay, i must as well just go to Aus the other time!!" He said" haiya! go la go la!" EEEeee chao ah beng i hate you!
:( asshole

Comparison

2009-04-14T00:08:00.002+08:00

Yes, Comparison. Why would i blog about this? cos jonathan just compared me to "A". It really gets me boiling when someone compares me with another person. I am born like that.. take it or leave it.

Why do people like to compare so much? Im not saying i dont, in fact i do... maybe i compare in a good way? MUAHAHAHA...

Comparison can be good or bad right? But why is it whenever he compares someone with me, I have to be the bad one? Fuck eh! (Suddenly, im falling in love with blogging again). I am so fucking random.
Joyce added me on facebook and i saw the plantation photos, i still cannot figure out what it is abt it looks like the pain was excruciating. HOWEVER! Joyce was still smiling to the camera:) it's something like scarification if im not mistaken. ouch!

(back to comparison) I HATE "A"!!!!! i dont know why i just hate her! She stole everything away from me! happiness! eeeeeee! I think her next target is jonathan! hahahaha (picturing jon being a poor innocent lamb and "A" a big bad tico (pervert) wolf...ah...woooooooo) I wont let it happen! I will NEVER let it happen!!!! Doesnt hating someone means being jealous? which means im jealous of her?!?!?!?!?! How can that be.... ok ok i admit maybe a little. Everyone seems to be like .....oh! "A" the good girl who is kind, filial, and everything nice. But Jocelyn.. lazy, full of herself, and everything bad. EY LISTEN! F-U-C-K O-F-F!!!!!

I am what i am. Anyone pisses me off by comparing me to anyone again ill fucking put a pistol and blow your fucking cb brain then throw the bits and pieces of your disgusting brain to Kallang River!!!

:)

I went Prawn-ing yest! My virgin ok! and i caught ELEVEN!

K CHAOZ!

2009-04-12T17:14:00.002+08:00

***1/2 for this movie! It has fewer race scenes compared to the previous ones. I went to watch it in Downtown East with Jon and his friends during ah bui's birthday:)

So anyway, i was at downtown east waiting for Jon all to buy the tickets then i saw this group of 12-15 years old teenagers. LOL MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! here's the conversation they had. i was Kpo la !

boy 1: Wah lan Eh! KNN dunno how to keep hao meh

girl 1: Chee Bye la. Kaopei lan ah!

boy 2(looks at me, then tries to act he knows it all): Eh got thing say, say outside, i settle, arbo sua.

girl 2: sua lan ah! kaopei lo! diam la. u dunno dun anyhow le

LOL i dont even understand what was the fuss all about. over that little purse that boy 1 asked girl 1 to hold it for him or they're just trying act big in pubic... i mean public. Tsk Tsk... i shall not get influenced by them. I will be determined to stop being a FOULED-MOUTH BITCH :) im demure!

Yesterday i went to have supper in Geylang.. mee hoon kue. My favourite, haiy gained weight again! it's ok la! fei shi fu :) Eating happily when a fight occured. But there was no " NNBCCB!" OR " FUCK YOUR MOTHER'S PUA CHEEBYE!!" It was quiet. Just one guy wearing green bashing the other one up. Every hit was accurate! then the guy who got whacked picked up something like a rod from the floor and wanted to hit the green guy. Then this black guy( green guy's friend) went up and slapped that guys' face, and kicked him in the stomach.

He fled ran ran ran and ran, bleeding and the green guy chased after him.

Throughout the whole incident no one made a noise, no shouting, no screaming for help.... nothing, just whacking, kicking, slapping and running. Therefore, i assume the guy being whacked is mute and deaf .

Police came after awhile, the green guy saw the police car and pretended nothing happened, walked past the police car calmly and ran to flap for a cab. HAMJI! NO JUSTICE! And that poor guy, i also dont know what happened to him. Probably somewhere fainted or something. haiy.....

Totally ruined my whole meal.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YO!

2009-04-12T16:24:00.006+08:00

So, my dearest loyal readers.. which only includes ah mei, and a few more :) im updating now! My mommy went to Hunan for 7 days which means i will be staying in the West for these few days or so i think. If my dad starts nagging then ill have to obliged and drag myself home i guess.
Jonathan told me he's bringing me to Genting 3 weeks later. I ve never been there so ill just go take a look.

Say wee's birthday was last week. DBL O it is! Jona came only at like 2am? I vomited before he came so ill be slightly sober and walk straight :)

NNBCB! IM A FUCKING FOOL!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-02T23:55:00.001+08:00

I FUCKING HATE MYSELF!!!!

I DO !!!!
I HATE ME I HATE ME I HATE ME I HATE ME!!!!!!!!!

IM SORRY

Google Me Baby

2009-04-01T22:54:00.006+08:00

I had a fucking tired day. School+Tutoring

FUCKING TIRED!!!

Reminds myself: bring laughing gas to school :)

So, i will head straight to the main point, i tried to google myslf just now. haha and this is what i got!

EEE.... im not popular. Some are not even me!! eh heh! which suddenly gave me this thought of being famous. yayayayaya... i was reading Xiaxue's blog, and i was thinking if a bitch like her can make her blog so famous i can too. But i have to admit she writes really well.

ok on a second thought, i wouldnt want to be famous, i would rather stay like that. Too much of a hassle for me to become famous. Thinking of all the paparazzi and taboos! FOOOYO! Now, i pity Xiaxue.

Class was ok today. oooo.. Politics! Here goes

Dear T,

Well it's true that I dont like u anymore so if ure reading this, u can stop asking arnd :) Following are the reasons why so u can stop being paranoid and plucking your hair out trying to wonder "Why does everyone hates me?"

1) U re a fucking spoilt brat

2) It doesnt mean u want things to go your way, it has to ( Are u dumb? or are you dumb?)

3) Stop being lazy and walk! not eveyone has to chauffeur you around

4) Fucking HYPOCRITE (say what you mean! )

5) Stop acting cute "i think if i act cute ppl will like me better" (TEH!!!!!! not working, if it works... eh why the fuck am i writing this?)

6) Appreciate when you ask others for favours.

:) maybe ill start liking you again if u buy me my favourite chicken burger everyday

So i was on my way to tutor this new student and i was stuck in a jam, i saw firemen and TP by the side of the road. I was amazed again! cos i ve never seen firemen at work before! yaya im easily amazed, actually im quite of a mountain tortise.

Nitin,Kev,Joce and Reg. We Rock

2009-03-31T18:41:00.006+08:00

I know, You know, She knows, He knows, We all know JOCELYN ROCKS!! :) This is Nitin's master piece.

Finally, Electronic Media! I couldnt wait for this module because i thought it was gonna be as fun as my Diploma Batch when we had Mr Lim as our lecurer. Eh... I was a little disappointed maybe cos this time round it is theory based. No more pracs.

School's from 8:30am -3:15pm today! FUCKED UP! I got stopped cos i was wearing slippers again. CB sia! The first time i got kicked out, i sneaked into a cab and drove in. This time i couldnt be bothered anymore i just said " yayaya ill wear shoes tmr. K GTG! im late BYE" and i ran to my classroom. Fuck sia MDIS. which FUCKING Private cares so much about dressing not even Singapore Uni or Poly is so strict. Fucked up.

Anyhow, the 1st half was just boring.... then the 2nd half, Nitin, Kev and I started bluetoothing one another sick photos. Im only uploading 2 cos the rest are just sick so i deleted!

So there's this one more thing, we were so amazed by this chewing gum that Silvia gave to us. It's super minty!! I even took a pic cos I was really amazed sia! u should try it.

Jonathan's 21st itself

2009-03-30T23:56:00.022+08:00

Let the pictures do the talking :)

Im really thankful for all the people who came down despite the busy schedules. STEADY LA YOU ALL! :)

Preparing for my sunshine's Birthday :)

2009-03-28T18:21:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is my dear boyfriend's birthday! 21st. I didnt get him anything this year instead i HAND MADE a "lifestory of jonathan" storybook for him. Since this is the first day that im blogging again after 1 yr, i didnt bring any gadget that i can transfer photos into the com ill upload it tomorrow.

Here! im so excited. this is the plan for my bf's surprise party! ill be waiting for him to come home at 9pm and we ll head down to cine to watch a "movie" :) That's what i told him but the reaaalll plan is i booked a room in KBOX and asked all his friends to go there and when we're there......"SURPRISE!" lol.

Ok. i passed my PR module and i really hope i can pass my advertising cos i fucking not wanna see khoo gee ka any min longer! Fucked up. who would name their child khoo gee ka?!?! it souds like the pokee ad "googiika". :)